Where To Go When Life Moves On Without You

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Where To Go When Life Moves On Without You

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Last year my life saw a relatively small yet significant change in its course. It’s weird to think that both of those descriptions can occur at once, and it’s even more strange to experience the emotional turbulence of such an occurrence. A few months after it happened I was in the shower and thought of the title “Where To Go When Life Moves On Without You”. The phrase felt like such an indicator for where I’ve been emotionally, only in my experience it’s been more of a question.

“Where should I go now that the version of my life I thought I would live has moved on without me?”

It’s a question I still haven’t answered, but one I feel more comfortable with facing as every day passes.

What I’ve found to be the most exhausting in the time period between then and now is the pendulum I ride that swings between motivation to make something new of my life, and frustration that things didn’t pan out how I thought they would. Really, the difficulty comes in the sliding between the two, the moments where I’m neither motivated or mad—I’m just alive and time passes as it always does. If it feels like this thought piece is going somewhere let me spoil the ending and tell you that it’s not. This is life and it’s good, hard, frustrating, and exciting. Even when things are less than ideal and the future is unclear, I can make something of whatever I have. The force that continues to push me forward is the knowing that I’ve made something out of myself once before, and I’m sure I can do it again if I just keep trying.

Towards the end of last year I felt fully in the middle of the pendulum, but as the new year churns on I’m finding more inspiration and motivation to move forward with the new version of my life (thankfully and finally). That said, No Score should be back in full swing starting in the next few weeks. I’m not sure what direction I want to take the letter in but we’ll figure it out as we go. For anyone that reads this letter and everyone that’s had kind things to say about it, thank you it means a lot to me.

The Future of No Score

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At the start of this year I set a goal to read twenty books, look through thirty magazines, listen to one hundred albums, and watch two hundred movies. It’s a pretty large goal but based on the progress I made in January I feel pretty confident I’ll knock it out. I figured it would be fun to share the various books, movies, magazines, and albums I end up enjoying, so I plan to send out a weekly update of my favorites along the way. If you remember my Sunday Recs segment, this will replace that.

This year I’m also hoping to bring No Score into the physical realm with a photobook or a zine. I haven’t ironed out the ideas I have completely but I’m hoping to have something to share by the start of spring.

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Thanks again for reading No Score, talk soon!